Then my world stopped....

When he said I couldn't go

I fought my system to contradict

It's too much and I cannot bear

My world stopped in that moment..

It was like he was asking me to stop breathing

To close my eyes when there's a shooting star

To cover my ears when my favorite song is turned on

To feel pain while I'm in my happiest

When he said I couldn't go

I closed my eyes and still said 'Yes'

I put up a wall around myself so only I could feel the pain

My world stopped in that moment...

How will it be like, not seeing you around?

How will it be like, not hearing your voice?

How will it be like, not feeling your presence?

Then I realized, I didn't love him anymore...

It's unfair for him, Unfair for me

So I decided to sacrifice my happiness and Stay with him

I may not be happy but atleast one of us is going to be..

My world stopped in that moment...

I'll wait for the time when I see you one last time

Maybe I'll have the courage to admit what I feel inside

For now, I'm just going to put up a face that beams

Close my eyes and luckily see you in my dreams...

What I Feel.

Scared to show you how I feel

Scared to talk about the things I feel

Scared to know what your reactions might be

Scared of what may happen if i'll pull you close to me

Unsure if what you feel for me is true

Unsure if at the end it would be us two

Unsure of the words I've heard you oath

Unsure about you and what the future holds

Never will I regret the things I have said

Never will I do the things you detest

Never will I lie in front of your eyes

Never will I leave, until your feeling for me dies

I can write poems with you on my head

I can sing a love song for the feelings unsaid

I can feel my heart starts to dance with joy

I can smile at you forever like a little boy

Still scared that you might leave 

Still unsure if I should wear my heart on my sleeve

Still never will I regret the day that we've met

Still I can love you cause I know you're my fate, my kismet.

Tagalog naman. :)

Ikaw ang laging nasa isip

Laging laman ng panaginip

Hindi man ikaw ang sinisinta

Bakit kulang pag wala ka?

Sa bawat komposisyon na ginagawa

Mukha mo ang laging nakikita

Tama ba tong aking nadarama?

O sadya yatang mahal na kita

Gaya ng hindi pagtila ng ulan

Nadarama ko para sayo'y walang hanggan

Ganto din kaya ang iyong pakiramdam

O ako lang talaga ang nakakaramdam?

Minsan naisip kong itigil na nga ito

Ngunit bumabalik lagi ang tanong ko

"Pano mo iiwan ang taong hindi naman naging sayo?"

"Tanga ka ba? o niloloko mo lang sarili mo?"

Respeto ang tawag mo sa iyong pagiwas

Ngunit kitang kita naman ang iyong nadarama

Sa tuwing kasama ko ang aking sinisinta

Ikaw ay hindi makatingin o makatawa

Ako ay sobrang nalilito

Nagugulo ang ikot ng aking mundo

Hanggang ganto na lang talaga tayo

Hanggang matanggap natin ang sitwasyong ito

Pangako kong di kita iiwanan

Sa bawat landas na iyong dadaanan

Hinding hindi kita bibitawan

Sapagkat kapatid na lang ang ating turingan 

I Miss..

I miss the way the bright morning sun heats my skin

I miss the way the warm gentle breeze caress my face

I miss the smell of a freshly mowed lawn

I miss the smell of the salty sea water

I miss the way we banter

I miss the way you sing

I miss the time we talk seriously

I miss the time you laugh excessively

I miss the way you smile

I miss the way your skin touches mine

I miss the time we're together

I just wish that you were mine. 

Sweet Lovers

Seems like I've known you for so long

But I think something is wrong

I knew that you had someone

Yet, you chose me to be the one

What I feel just hurts so bad

Sometimes I just want to stay mad

All the lies you said to my face

Keeps haunting me in every place

I left my someone for you

Why can't you do that for me too?

I understand what you are going through

But please don't make me feel like a fool

You and me are almost the same

Everyday I pray this is not just another game

I'll wait for you if that's what you want

But make good on your promises coz that's what i want

I don't want myself to loose

Especially if what I'll loose is you

I've left my heart open for you

Trusting you to take care of it too

You push me to extremes 

I don't want these to be one of your schemes

I just want this to be simple

And be forever your eyes' only apple

Now that we are miles apart

I didn't realize it would be this hard

I wish I'll have the faith you've ask

So that in the end it would be just us

Your Letter

I push you away

You push me back

Can't find my way

I'm getting stuck

Why do you do this?

I am confused

Your signals are mixed

My feelings are bruised

I think of you often

I hate what I'm feeling

I want to see you again

Will fate make that happen?

If I leave him will you stay?

If you stay, will everything be okay?

Will it be us night and day?

Or will you go and run away?

I don't know if I'm falling

Or if I already fell

I don't wanna be left crawling

And be in this hell

One day I wish you just tell

How you feel and if you fell

Coz I feel I am under your spell

And if you did, my heart would swell

Will you wait for me as I will wait for you?

Or will we wait for each other until our time is through?

Pray our strength is enough to breakthrough

The doubts in our minds that we are going through.

I do not know what we have 

If this is love or it is not

But if this is all that we can have

Then I am willing to settle no matter what

Confusion

This is not new.

I always get confused, but not with this kinds of feelings.

I do not know what to do.

It's hard for me to admit this things in my head.

I love you that's for sure.

But why, oh why, do I have to fall for another?

You are my future but he's always on my mind.

You are my Man, my bestfriend and my life.

But he is there, he listens, he cares...

He says the things that i wanted to hear from you.

He does the things that i wanted you to do for me.

Can this really happen?

I am falling for him.

I don't want to loose you.

I am selfish, I want to love you both.

He knows that i have you.

I know he has someone special too.

But we're falling for each other, what am i going to do?

I don't want to hurt you love.

I don't want to lie.

But I just couldn't let go of him, no matter how hard I try.

We've been together for so long.

I don't want to leave you.

But he's pull is so strong.

This situation is fucked-up.

I can't decide who.

Maybe a decision kiss will do.